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I Wish I Was Kaiju

by Pigeon Scratch

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Cardian Matsu
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Cardian Matsu There's been this sort of movement in the indie scene since around the early 2010s (well, longer than that, but not in such a wave) of just really putting it all out.

Art is an extension of yourself, but the self is usually hidden behind a fear of being shown, an apprehension of being exposed. It takes a lot to move past that and pour everything you have into the void.

It's hard to say what really connects with me on things like this, other than that it's unabashedly real. Keep being real. Favorite track: Angel In The Forest [Part 1/2].
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laika pigeon scratch? more like good musician check their stuff out. very good yes 👍 Favorite track: Questioning Pigeon.
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The sun has deteriorated Our bodies stretched forever And you became the lights in our starts in our skys Our eyes are no longer there We've seen everything we needed to see And now we've became everything The end of our stars The birth of more stars Our bodies are no longer there And everything we've known
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Angel In The Forest We meet again Can I kiss you again? Can I kiss you again? Angel In The Forest What happened to your wings? You can't fly anymore We must move again It's a shame It's a shame it has to be like this It's a shame It's a shame we have to be like this Stereotypical hatred Stereotypical hatred
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You never thought that I Would ever consider you And now we have died I was never sure about love at all and now I'm secluded and alone And it's all my fault It's all my fault
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Pride Pins 02:02
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Oh Joey, Oh Joey It will be okay Just try to think Oh Joey, Oh Joey It will be okay Just sit down and breath Everything is quite terrifying And I understand why everything I'm afraid to talk about everything Oh Joey (4x) Oh Joey, you'll be just fine. Oh Joey, you'll be okay Just try to sit and breath Oh Joey, Oh Joey It will be okay It will be okay hey, it will be okay
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Adopt a highway And then it'll find a new home It will overcome with nature soil And grow some trees will rage across Adopt a highway Adopt a highway
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Balloon Boy 03:15
Balloon Boy (4x) He was never seen again He was never seen again He float away (4x) Never seen again He never seen again His family misses him so much He never saw the ending of his life the ending of his life He fell down, He fell down Into the water He never seen again He's never seen again Balloon Boy (4x) Balloon Boy (4x) His balloon popped from the atmosphere His balloon popped from the atmosphere He disappeared into the air He disappeared into the air He was never seen again He was never seen again Balloon Boy (4x) Never seen again He's never seen again Balloon Boy (4x) He was never seen again He was never seen again He flew away (4x) He was never seen again He was never seen again
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I don't know what love is So don't begin to show me I look at myself naked I think about my body and my mind I don't look like myself In a physical kind of way I feel so indifferent about everything Am I even a man (4x) I don't even know what that means anymore I wish I didn't have my fingers I wish I didn't have my hands I wish I didn't have my arms I wish I didn't have a torso I wish I didn't have a face I wish I didn't have a body I wish I was a bird I wish I was Kaiju Am I even a man (4x) I don't even know what that means to be a man anymore
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Nervous Goat 02:23
I'm a nervous goat I can't walk by myself I'm a nervous goat I can't walk by myself I need to be surrounded by other people I could feel my lungs collapse I'm breathing too heavily I don't want to speak or talk anymore Lets co-operate some more
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He stretched and pulled the clay And made a long and curvy beak Perfect for the gathering of wild fruits and berries You could've had this beak he said the bird And he squeezed the clay into a stubby hook This beak is for someone who cannot wait his turn He said to the bird And your long and slender neck will be the shortest of all he said as he squashed the bird's head down into his shoulders And I will give you the biggest ears he said to the bird Cause maybe one day you will listen with them And your legs for wading along the shore shall be short and fat" And your scruffy wings and stubby tail will help you sail through branches high in the forest" he said to the bird He rolled the bird through the muddy dirt on the ground your fiery feathers shall be the color of the soil And your eyes shall be the biggest. Too big for the bright sun of the day when I am about and awake" he said to the bird The night shall be your time, hiding all the while in old and broken trees Secluded from everyone else And the dude threw the bird into the air as the last rays of sun faded into the woods and the bird flew off into the darkness And his bird disappeared He was never seen again For he was ashamed of himself For being who he was He never knew what it was like to be the person he wanted to be He was too impatient for it And he flies away for as long as possible To get away from everyone else Since that is the only way to get away from everything And this is where our story begins.
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You sent me a CD You drew the album cover for me It was a collection of love songs It was about you and me I didn't play a single track I just looked at the cover all night long I changed the album cover four or five times It's been so much I don't remember the exact number I lost count I thought I was in love I thought I was in love
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Fuv/k 02:58
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Vogel 03:46
I wish I was a bird (x alot of times)
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Hanahaki 01:49
Oh hanahaki, hanahaki Cough up petals In the rain, in the rain In the end, despite how beautiful My lungs burn. Oh hanahaki, hanahaki Oh hanahaki, hanahaki I don't really know This is it, because I can't admit ?????

about

I Wish I Was Kaiju. Creation started December 19th, 2019.

As of writing this on March 29th, 2020, it has been really hard to write something about this album. I can say that this album has had the most effort I have put into an album so far. In a way, ideas for this album started back in September, 2019. I distinctly remember that the title was gonna be "Album Cover For a Nonexistant Album". That album was instantly scrapped after the creation of the first track.

During my December project, the album title "I Wish I Was Kaiju" was brought up as a joke in a conversation online, as like a reference towards Giantism. I liked the sentence so much, I decided it would be a good album title. This is what I call the actual first version of this album. Four tracks were made, but three of them didn't make it. There are two reasons. One of them is that it just didn't really fit the sound I was going for. The other was because two of them talked about some struggles I had with my mother, and after the creation of those two tracks, it was already outdated on what I was feeling. I apologize if you're reading this, mom.

Before this current version, I was attempting on a different project, which was gonna be acoustic only. The only thing left of that project is a song, and a screenshot of the album cover as well as its title (because I was fucking dumb and I didn't save the album cover).

So now, we have this version. Kowloon Walled City was the first track I recorded in the album, and it uses alot of ideas from the never-started album from September, and it kinda grew like a tree from there.

I decided to make this album different from the rest of my discography in alot of really small ways. This is the first album of my catalog that doesn't include any piano (unless you count electronic synths, which is a big dum dum of you), and also the first album without any real drums. The percussion was actually me using my drumsticks against my desk. This is also an album you can play forwards or backwards order. That is why both Angel In The Forest tracks aren't just simply called "Part 1", or "Part 2". I know it is a very small thing, but I think it is rather interesting :3.

This album is about a lot of things. The main focus on this album is looking back on my Discography, hence why there is recreations of tracks like Balloon Boy, and Angel In The Forest. I have expressed this alot, ever since the release of Dear Grandma, that I sometimes have SEVERE distaste on alot of my albums. One of them being Acoustic Unfinished Full of Love.

BIG THANK YOU to the people who listened to album before its release, who are Vixia, Ashley Ninelives, Caffeine Planet, Ember,

ANOTHER THANK YOU to Caffeine Planet, for helping out a FUCKTON during the production of this album.

YES, ANOTHER THANK YOU to @ArtBingus on twitter for drawing the dino dude on the album cover! I can't thank you enough!!

AND ONE LAST FUCKIN THANK YOU TO ALL THE PEOPLE WHO LISTEN TO MY MUSIC, AND TO ALL MY FRIENDS AND ACQUAINTANCES WHO HAVE HELPED ME THROUGHOUT MY TIME ONLINE!! YOU PEOPLE KEEP ME SANE!!

Note: There is another release that contains a lot of other tracks I made during the creation of I Wish I Was Kaiju, including alternative versions to some tracks that are included here! Note: It is much longer than the actual album. I apologize in advance :3

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released April 25, 2020

Album by Pigeon Scratch
Album art by Pigeon Scratch
Original Kaiju by @ArtBingus
Chimes on Katsudō Shashin by Caffeine Planet

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